Thank You!

2015-03-15

I’ve been trying to think of how to begin this first blog for a while until it came to me today, and of course the best way to start this is by thanking every single one of you for the outstanding support you have given us so far. I also have to thank my partner Shaun, my family and friends, and my Cuties.

This post may be a bit long so please bear with me, it’s my first time!

I am completely overwhelmed and for once in my life, I have been lost for words.

It’s important for me to thank you because only a month ago, I was only being held together by Shaun and a handful of close family and friends.

Losing my fertility has by far been one of the hardest things I have had to go through.

When I fell pregnant five years ago, it was possibly the most amazing thing to happen to me. I always wanted to be a mum.

Things didn’t work out, and despite me complaining of chronic pains to my doctors for over two years, my concerns were ignored. By the time they finally listened to me, I had to have three operations and I came out of it all unable to conceive naturally.

I had a breakdown and was pretty much left to deal with things alone, so depression took over. I was offered pills and had a few counselling sessions, but when my counsellor fell asleep I gave up going. It made me feel worse. I have chosen not to take anti-depressants.

I recently found a better counsellor, but during one of our chats, she said “let’s face it, unless you win the lottery, there is no way you’re ever going to have a child”, and this got me thinking.

I’ve always been a tough cookie, but the last few years have taken their toll and I lost my way completely.

After this particular session, I came home and realised that actually, the thing that depresses me the most isn’t being unable to conceive, but rather being unable to give myself a chance to try. Because of the delay in my care I no longer qualify for IVF on the NHS so it’s up to us, and to be frank, I’m just not ready to give up.

I’ve always loved crafting, knitting, making cards, crochet, and sewing, and in the last few years, it has been my therapy. This is why I love my Cuties so much; they may well have saved my life and most importantly, they give me hope.

Shaun and my family loved my work so much they suggested I try opening a shop online, and we made a Facebook page. Needless to say that after two months of complete invisibleness on Facebook I was more depressed than ever. No luck whatsoever, apart from a handful of people sharing my Cuties to emptiness, even my friends weren’t sharing me. Since talking to other people I have found out that it’s just the way of Facebook sadly, always plenty of baby pictures on there, but no likey for Steffieb.

I was ready to give up, but then Shaun said we should try opening a Twitter account and send a few pictures out. This was on the 2nd of February, and one month later we have over 1300 followers. Many Cuties have been adopted and some even have their own twitter accounts! I have no words to express my gratitude to everyone.

I never wanted to talk about my infertility; I don’t talk about it at home so putting it on a public forum was very daunting for me.

I definitely don’t want people to feel sorry for me, pity won’t help me and I am sure that there are people out there who have it worse than I do.

What I want to achieve is for people to think that at least I am trying, I want to give myself the best chance whilst I still have time. Spending the next ten years saving up is not an option for me because of my age so it’s time to Cutie up!

Who would have thought that my little Cuties would attract so much attention? Not me, that’s for sure.

I’ve received some amazing support from women, a sisterhood I’ve never known, and I also have a lot of men supporting me and being kind about my Cuties.

Huge high fives to you all…actually, big tens!

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I will let you know when there is a new post on our blog, I’ll talk about my progress, any new Cuties, and also I’d like to have some fun and games with you all.

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I like to make my Cuties small and unique, so sadly, if one has been sold (although I will make you another) the embellishments and the name will change. They start at £10 to try and cover the materials and my time, and of course the rest of the money goes in my IVF pot.

The only Cutie I have made two of is my little Dotty, she was my first and she inspired me every day. Dotty was adopted last week by a beautiful little girl and when I saw her photo I missed her so much I had to make another one. I hired her officially as my marketing manager so she is not going anywhere!

I make all the Cuties myself, so bear that in mind when you try and order a thousand of them!

I sell some of my own patterns as well, so if you live very far away and you just want to help, why not buy a pattern and try to make your own Cutie?

My passions are my family and my friends, my Shaun, my cat Billy and my fishies, crafts, books, gardening and nature. I love beautifulness.

We will soon have a Cuties friends page on here: this is a special place for our friends and supporters. We will also have a Cuties adventure page, so if you have your own Cutie, send me pics for your place in our lovely nest.

Finally, last week after just three weeks of promoting myself, I won an award, I’m officially a Queen of Fabulous! How fab is that? Another boost that came just in time. Now I need to stop writing or I will cry – happy tears, of course!

So this is me, I’m a simple girl who likes the simple things in life, looking for friends to help me. I can’t do this on my own. Thank you for reading and for joining me on my journey.

You have a lovely day and take good care,

Steffie x

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